Friday, January 21, 2005
today is the day i got my left ear pierced at heeren.... went with fabian and he saw it being done... must say it looks alright, but it was much less painful than i thought.... hopefully this will last with no infections and closure of the wound....
wil be asking joanna tmr to help me take out the stud and replace it with the straw cos my dad will be back on sunday... oh yeah and hopefully my parents wont know, or if they do then hopefully they wont mind....
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Thursday, January 20, 2005
sometimes i really wonder, y whe superiors hav problems and are feeling irritated, they will find someone to take that anger out on, just so that they can feel better and return to their normal selves after that and pretend nothing has happened???? dont they realised that the person they take it out on also has feeling which are as rich and abundant as themselves??? y do pple always forget that??? its so selfish and self-centred that it seems so ridiculous and immature.... thats wad happened to me today... twice actually.... the first time i was ok, just a lil bit affected but still managed to pass through the day with a smile, bue the second one really affected me cos it was really out-right biasness and ignorance.... even though the person himself owned up and i told my superior the truth, he insisted on scolding me and kept saying that it was me and that he didnt want to hear any explanations... i feel so hurt after that, but after he took everything out on me, he began to speak to the others in a tone like nothing has happened... i feel so unimportant and so used, y do pple think that i hav no feelings and that everything could be blamed on me just so that they hav someone to blame and also to make them feel better that they hav taken the frustration out on someone??? i hav feelings too, im human..... the song by simple plan seems to describe how im feeling now exactly.... really.... and its a nice song too... haha
Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don’t belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming
No you don’t know what it’s like
When nothing feels alright
You don’t know what it’s like to be like me
To be hurtTo feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kickedWhen you’re down
To feel like you’ve been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one’s there to save you
No you don’t know what it’s like
Welcome to my life
Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more
Before your life is over?
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With the big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you’re bleeding
No you don’t know what it’s like
When nothing feels alright
You don’t know what it’s like to be like me
To be hurtTo feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kickedWhen you’re down
To feel like you’ve been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one’s there to save you
No you don’t know what it’s like
Welcome to my life
No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I’m happy But I’m not gonna be ok!
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don’t know what it’s likeWhat it’s like!
To be hurtTo feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kickedWhen you’re down
To feel like you’ve been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one’s there to save you
No you don’t know what it’s like (what it's like)
To be hurtTo feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kickedWhen you’re down
To feel like you’ve been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one’s there to save you
No you don’t know what it’s like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
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Thursday, January 06, 2005
ok finally hav the time and energy to write something.... went to shanghai on the 28th of december last year till the 1st of jan this year.... it was really great!!! so so much better than i thought... the pple were generally nicer than i thought and the food were really excellent... actually the trip started out on a really great note becos i like planes and the singapore airlines B777 that we took to shaghai wasnt in the standard sia livery, it was the special star alliance logo.... haha cant believe how excited i was just by being able to board a specially painted aircraft.... anyway if u wanna look at the plane pls copy and paste the link cos i to lazy to do it lah.... sorry...
http://www.airliners.net/open.file?id=739661&WxsIERv=Qm9laW5nIDc3Ny0zMTI%3D&WdsYXMg=U2luZ2Fwb3JlIEFpcmxpbmVz&QtODMg=U2hhbmdoYWkgLSBQdWRvbmcgSW50ZXJuYXRpb25hbCAoUFZHIC8gWlNQRCk%3D&ERDLTkt=Q2hpbmE%3D&ktODMp=RGVjZW1iZXIgMjEsIDIwMDQ%3D&BP=0&WNEb25u=QW5kcmV3IEh1bnQgLSBBaXJUZWFtSW1hZ2Vz&xsIERvdWdsY=OVYtU1lF&MgTUQtODMgKE=TXkgZmlyc3QgdGltZSBzZWVpbmcgdGhlIFNRIFN0YXIgQWxsaWFuY2UgY29sb3VycywgYW5kIEkgbGlrZSBpdC4gQWxzbyBmb3VuZCBhIG5ldyBwaG90b2dyYXBoeSBsb2NhdGlvbiBhdCBQVkcuLi4uYnV0IGJld2FyZSBvZiB0aGUgYXV0aG9yaXRpZXMhIChOaWtvbiBENzAp&YXMgTUQtODMgKERD=MTkwNw%3D%3D&NEb25uZWxs=MjAwNC0xMi0yMg%3D%3D&ODJ9dvCE=&O89Dcjdg=Mjg1MzEvMjQ0&static=yes&sok=V0hFUkUgIChhaXJjcmFmdF9nZW5lcmljID0gJ0JvZWluZyA3NzctMzAwJykgQU5EIChhaXJsaW5lIExJS0UgJ1NpbmdhcG9yZSBBaXJsaW5lcyUnIE9SIGFpcmxpbmUgTElLRSAnQnJpdGlzaCBBaXJ3YXlzIC8gU2luZ2Fwb3JlIEFpcmxpbmVzJScpIEFORCAoRklORF9JTl9TRVQoJ2NvbG9yZnVsX3BhaW50Jywgc3BlY2lhbCk%2BMCkgIE9SREVSIEJZIHBob3RvX2lkIERFU0M%3D&photo_nr=2&size=L
at shanghai we went to those palces selling imitation stuff which u can bargain and get a good price.... i got some shirts from there.... bout S$5 each.... haha and they all hav brands like quiksilver and stuff... so cheapo of me but oh well, u know wad saf pay is like...
we oso went to places like the pearl tower which looks far more impressive real life than those pictures from the newspapers and stuff.... for meals we hav stuff like soy milk, bean curd, chinese stuff like that, only during dinner time where we will hav some western stuff... cant take chinese food all the way lah, can die one... there is also this shopping centre in the middle of shanghai called raffles city and yeah, its operated by a singaporean.... so inside u get stuff like breadtalk and other singapore brands.... the design and things like that also make u feel like ure in singapore... so clean, neat and they oso have food courts.... got ice kacang somemore...
oh yeah, lastly, the highest temperature we experienced there was 4 degrees, and that was on the first day, after that the temperature didnt rise above 1 degrees!! it was freezing man.... and it snowed on the 3rd day!! shanghai hasnt snowed for over 10 years according to the locals and this time it has even snowed enough to create white roof tops!! it was totally cool trying to endure the cold weather.... an absolute experience... haha man wanna go there again... great place
ok...... now that im back to earth (and camp), life is still as hectic, and there are some news here and there that suggests that i would be going for my overseas posting in thailand in feb... i will sure miss my friends.... those in church and of course those amazing friends i hav in camp... but in another way i would love to go just for the experience of working in an overseas base and also to get away from the bitch of a rq in my camp.. (sorry for the language but i cant stand pple that suck up to some, put down others and literally back stabs u when ure not looking or listening) she is such a big turn off that i am willing to not see my friends for a while and escape to thailand.. i hate her, and i will never forgive her, i hope she learns her lesson the hard way and that she gets the taste of her (or should i say it's) own medicine....
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