1 w@lk a10ne....

*the keeper*

:: @h t0n6 aka shenghao::
:: 22 yrs old::
:: date of birth: 9th Jan 1985::
:: hometown: singapore::
:: location: perth, australia::
:: currently: slacking, socialising, studying::
:: e-mail: ahtong::

*loves *

:: disney parks::
:: making new friends::
:: planes::
:: singing::
:: lazying around and sleeping::
:: the sun, beach and sand::
:: surfing the net::

*hates *

:: pple who take me for granted.. they're not my friends::
:: self centred, selfish and arrogant pple::
:: pple who 'eat' or take advantage of my kindness::
:: pple who talk behind my back::

*wishlist *

:: visit disneyland's 50th::
~~:: visit japan again::~~
:: know more awesome pples::
~~:: go on to uni at UWA::~~
:: some personal wish.... shhhhh....::
:: go to the community service projects overseas::
~~:: go to taiwan::~~
~~:: get a ear piercing::~~
~~:: get my own digital cam::~~

Thursday, August 18, 2005

hmmm first of all, i hate selfish and self centred pple... pple like john heah.... yeah u heard me... ure so self centred and selfish and so political that u make me sick... im just so sick by the things u do to suck up to pple, and the way u hog onto the internet... u just make me sick, and i simply hate it... isnt it strange that when the thing u hate happens to someone else and u just dun give a damn about it? how bout a lil bit of humanity??? geez, i hate u

secondly, i regret not given the chance to go to ocs... it was a traumatising bmt experience, with my platoon sergeant being charged, and my platoon commander almost ended up with the same fate... it was because of things they did that i had injury and got downgraded, and it was also because we were being led by a negative example that command school was written off from all of our posting lists...

i know i could hav done it... going through the fitness and stuff like that... going through all the shit to get the bar on ur shoulders...

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but before all of these, standing on the parade square at safti mi, with the smart no. 1 uniform, knowing that ur loved ones are at the stand looking at u, and u feel the surge in nationla pride, knowing that ure becoming an officer protecting this land called singapore...

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i know i could hav done it, if i can out run and think better than some of those arrogant officers, i believe that i could become an officer too... well, thanks to my platoon sergeant, u asshole... sometimes fate is very hard to understand... i dunno, maybe im not meant to go to a command school... but sometimes having the opportunity written off from u through no fault of ur own, and knowing that u can do it... frustrates me so so much....

well thats my life isnt it?? under-appreciated, not being commended, not being able to be the first in running or anything... sigh... sometimes its not that im not able to do it, its that im not given the chance to even try...

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ahtong signing out
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