Friday, June 30, 2006

zzzz....... went for morning swim with jasper, then after that went to ecp to blade with jasper!!! wah as if thats not enough, i still went for the prodigal son retreat at night.... absolutely stoned now.... just kill me!! tmr still hav to go for retreat at 8am in the morning!! @!$@%#@%$@&

oh well, it was a fun day today, i havent bladed in like 3 weeks and it felt really good.... hopefully jasper enjoyed it as much... i hope he did....

-----------------------------------------------------------
ahtong signing out
@ |10:19 PM|
Thursday, June 29, 2006

cant believe i spent like S$150 on facials yesterday!!! wah!!! went to 'face of men' for facial yesterday.... but it was good... finally time for me to relax and rest.... think i would go again before i leave for australia for studies.... but its S$150 leh!!! shits lah.... think i need to start the 'save ahtong fund' already....

-----------------------------------------------------------
ahtong signing out
@ |12:54 PM|
Wednesday, June 28, 2006

oh my God, my Lord, in which way am i fit to be Your children??

im a sinner, a terrible sinner.... temptations are so great in this world that we live in, that its a easy to forget that u hav a way planned for us, that ure always watching over us... how faithless are we to doubt your love the moment things in life go slighty wrong in our eyes!! forgive me Lord, i am but a terrible sinner and a catholic with a shallow faith...

but alas, thank you for guiding me, for showing me that indeed u hav a way planned for me. for showing me that U care... Amen.

-----------------------------------------------------------
ahtong signing out
@ |8:52 PM|
Tuesday, June 27, 2006

ARGH!!! on my social front, things have been going pretty well, ive been in contact with a few of my old friends, going out with friends from taiwan, and making new friends in singapore....

BUT, on the studies front, THINGS JUST HAVENT BEEN GOING WELL AT ALL!!!

well first, my uni application was LOST in the mail, so now even though my term starts in july but i still havent got a place in it YET!!! ARGH!!! wad the hell is going on?!?!? sigh.... im so stressed now.... shits shits shits SHITS!!!!! yikes!!!

-----------------------------------------------------------
ahtong signing out
@ |8:19 PM|

hmmm, today went for my normal swimming routine, had a nice chat with 2 friends there before leaving the place with jasper.... as usual.... hahhaha

at night, wemt to meet up with guoxing at orchard mrt then proceeded to hav lunch at paragon... this is a pic we took there... sorry ah my eyes a bit the 'cocked'.... haha lame....



well, it was a very nice dinner.... had steak with crayfish pasta.... haha NICE!!! oh yeah, and it was indeed a good time of catching up with a good friend... seriously, guoxing is a very good friend to hav, he doesnt hav any ulterior motives for being ur friend, its out of goodwill, unlike some other pple who just likes to be ur friend so that they can somehow make use of u...

we talked about practically everything that's concerning us, hahha from exercising, to roller blading, to 36sce, to girlfriends, to his australia trip, to my australia studies, to my taiwan experiences, to his tuition and jobs etc etc etc... conclusion, its a good heart to heart talk with a good friend.... and i sure do enjoy his company a lot... well, thanks bro!!

hmmmm, after taking a bathe at home tonight, my dad asked me where will i be going tmr... and i said, well im meeting my friends at orchard mrt again at 1pm and prob will be staying there till dinner, and i will home after dinner... and wad he said next baffled me... he said in chinese though, that i should 'avoid going to pple's houses.... girl's house can, guy's house better not'

and i was like 'huh'????? and i just told him straight, that i'm just going out with catching up with my friends who just came back from taiwan, wads wrong with that?? and he just said, 'no lah im just reminding u'... like double 'huh'???

sigh, shouldnt read into it so much.... going to zzz soon.... good nitez!

-----------------------------------------------------------
ahtong signing out
@ |12:10 AM|
Saturday, June 24, 2006

YEY!!! wad an eventful evening yesterday!!! haha its been like ages since ive performed with the choir... i think not since my bmt..... hahah but wow!!! yesterday was awesome!! the food was wonderful, the performances were good, the presentations brought cheers and applauses.... and the pple that were there.... ahhaha its like the whos who of the catholic circle being there....

alright i hav to admit, it was a pleasure being there, in fact i think for us the choir, its a privilege being there... and its an experience that i will treasure even when i go to australia... sigh infact i think i would miss the choir so much when im there again....

its like, ive been travelling around so much ever since i was in sec 4, i should already get used to the fact that i would hav to say bye to some friends and make new ones as my life goes on... but somehow i just cant seem to conform myself with that mentality

i should be able to let go easily now.... but alas im not
i should be less sentimental now.... but alas i still am
i should be able to move on with my next phase in life.... but alas i cant

life just seems to hav a cruel way of testing us, of moulding and bending us, although this is needed to make us to be better pple and for us to know ourselves better, but..... sigh, its not a nice feeling to go through...

i treasure my friends, i miss those friends that sorta lost contact, and i love to make new friends...

-----------------------------------------------------------
ahtong signing out
@ |2:21 PM|
Thursday, June 22, 2006

whoo!!! hav been swimming almost everyday now... (with the exception of sunday)... but wassup with the weather man??? its like June, which is suppose to be one of the hottest month?but it has been like raining every other day!!! argh....

alright, so on the 21st, met up with wang juinn, colin aaron and ewen for some catching up... haha havent met up since i left cat high in sec 4!! wah..... time really flies man....

today went for a family catching up dinner at sizzler..... wah with all the input in calories these few days, better swim harder and with more laps.... hahahhahaha

oooo, tmr is the exciting day where we will be performing at mandarin for the nuncio!!! a bit nervous and scared oso leh.... hope i dun get the choreo wrong.... which would be absolutely horrible..... and last but not least, hope that we all will sing well, and surpass the expectations they have of us!! yipee!!!

-----------------------------------------------------------
ahtong signing out
@ |10:16 PM|
Monday, June 19, 2006

ORD LOH!!!!

today went back to camp with 2 family feasts KFC and 2 boxes of old chang kee to treat the pple in camp before i ord.... IM A FREE MAN!!!!! MUAHAHAHAHHAHAH

alright, but before i collected my i.c, i forgot to bring my ffi sheet!! argh, but luckily my kind dad decided to drive and get it for me... so thanks dad!!

YEY!!!

-----------------------------------------------------------
ahtong signing out
@ |8:38 PM|
Sunday, June 11, 2006

yey!! today me got a new phone!! nokia 3250...

had choir prac today... gosh... had to learn a new jap song for the dinner.... in a way i just hope that the choir will just be able to sing well and get this thing over n done with... cos i hate competition... and i hav no idea y peter low's choir will want to compete with us... i mean, hello.... geez

-----------------------------------------------------------
ahtong signing out
@ |11:27 PM|
Saturday, June 10, 2006

argh.... sick

feeling horrible... no voice

but tmr still hav to go for choir rehearsal cos im still not very familiar with the songs... hope it all goes well tmr...

-----------------------------------------------------------
ahtong signing out
@ |8:11 PM|
Wednesday, June 07, 2006

oh i forgot to add... now many pple whom i know personally may say that im a nice and tolerate person, while those that may hav just read the entry before this say that im a narrow, unforgiving and petty person....

the fact is this, i tend to give pple chances, as all pple do. chances to prove that it may be an isolated incident. but when it keeps repeating till the point where a sense of guilt or wadever is not present, then i would feel very 'made used of' and that is wad i dont like.

period.

-----------------------------------------------------------
ahtong signing out
@ |8:11 PM|

bah!! i dun care anymore liao!!! u know how pple always lament the fact the u know, 'friendships come and go'... then they will hav this sad and depressed look, then 'sigh....'

like HARLOW!!! of course friendships will end if u dun put any effort in maintaining the friendship!!! ok, so i hav been organising quite a few outings, eating outs, movies n stuff.... but i thought the very fact that a bunch of us bought roller blades means that at least we're going to make the effort to at least go out blading regularly.... but it has been a trend, that for the past few times that i organise something, a particular person, lets call him x, will say can at first, but later come out with various reasons y he cant come...

now as friends we would always be reasonable and say something like, 'oh its ok, how about some other time?' n of course, the person that said he cant come may go something like 'hey sorry i cant make it this sat leh, just realised got something on, how about some other day?'

but hey, its not the reality man.... x has already cancelled outings for about 5 times?? ranging from urgent matters, to family functions that he forgot.... and it has gotten very tiring for me, for me to always make time for pple but pple just cant make time to fulfill the commitment... and today even worse, not even a sorry or a 'some other time like....?'

ok, i've had enough, im not going to organise such things anymore, if they want ot hav an outing, then i better not be the one organising it.... and in turn, i will try my best to attend, or at least make known to them on the spot whether i can make it or not, and not just at the last minute, 'oh sorry i forgot i got this n this...'

i for one, will not be organising anymore outings with x, unless he is the one that initiates it... if not, well, who can blame me if the friendship fades?? ive been at the giving end, the trying end...

-----------------------------------------------------------
ahtong signing out
@ |7:47 PM|
Sunday, June 04, 2006

just a nice, different kinda prayer i stumbled upon from rachel's blog:

Different Type of Prayer

Heavenly Father, Help us remember that the jerk who cut us off in traffic last night is a single mother who worked nine hours that day and was rushing home to cook dinner, help with homework, do the laundry and spend a few precious moments with her children.

Help us to remember that the pierced, tattooed, disinterested young man who can't make change correctly is a worried 19-year-old college student, balancing his apprehension over final exams with his fear of not getting his student loans for next semester.

Remind us, Lord, that the scary looking bum, begging for money in the same spot every day (who really ought to get a job!) is a slave to addictions that we can only imagine in our worst nightmares.

Help us to remember that the old couple walking annoyingly slow through the store aisles and blocking our shopping progress are savoring this moment, knowing that, based on the biopsy report she got back last week, this will be the last year that they go shopping together.

Heavenly Father, remind us each day that, of all the gifts you give us, the greatest gift is love. It is not enough to share that love with those we hold dear. Open our hearts not just to those who are close to us but to all humanity. Let us be slow to judgment and quick to forgiveness and patience and empathy and love.

AMEN!

i should be more understanding to pple next time if i were to find them annoying... i should be more kind, helpful... more.... christian.... i should be, but y am i still annoyed at pple sometimes?? and am not the helpful person i know i should be?

-----------------------------------------------------------
ahtong signing out
@ |10:20 PM|

wah today worse.... cant seem to sing without using the throat and straining.... i know definitely that this kinda voice is not my usual kind, dunno wad happened to my voice yesterday and today.... just very sandy and not up to normal standards.... cracked a few times ont he high notes even.... sianz.... damn damn damn sianz....

-----------------------------------------------------------
ahtong signing out
@ |6:09 PM|
Saturday, June 03, 2006

haiz, dead dead dead tired now.... was blading in the afternoon, then went straight for choir after that.... dunno y, but today i kept feeling this bad vibe about myself singing and the very fact about being in choir...

i dunno, i dun hav this connection with this 'new' choir anymore... i dun hav this emotional connection anymore, i dun think i can sing very well... so im kinda 'overwhelmed' by it... i just dun feel quite good enough for it... like very the 'extra' being inside... i dunno.... thinking about the extra rehearsals before the nuncio's dinner is giving me more bad vibes and stuff.... i hope, that God will be able to help me, give me the voice and courage to be able to overcome wadever that comes in my way....

-----------------------------------------------------------
ahtong signing out
@ |8:55 PM|

haiz, dead dead dead tired now.... was blading in the afternoon, then went straight for choir after that.... dunno y, but today i kept feeling this bad vibe about myself singing and the very fact about being in choir...

i dunno, i dun hav this connection with this 'new' choir anymore... i dun hav this emotional connection anymore, i dun think i can sing very well... so im kinda 'overwhelmed' by it... i just dun feel quite good enough for it... like very the 'extra' being inside... i dunno.... thinking about the extra rehearsals before the nuncio's dinner is giving me more bad vibes and stuff.... i hope, that God will be able to help me, give me the voice and courage to be able to overcome wadever that comes in my way....

-----------------------------------------------------------
ahtong signing out
@ |8:55 PM|
Friday, June 02, 2006

alrighty just a quick update:

wed: went to watch x-men 3 with malau and guoyuan

thu: went roller-blading with guoyuan at ecp. fell and sorta injured my right elbow.

fri: which is today, went out and met joanna for lunch, movie, shopping, then dinner.... haha or yeah had dinner with nicholas and ah choy at chomp chomp oso....

oh yeah, found this on my friend's blog (his 30th May entry has a description about me):

Adrian Tong Aka. Ah Tong, kangaroo.He's lived in Australia and studied there for quite a bit of his life. Yet (and this of great importance) he doesn't have an Aussie accent. He's the bugger that handed down to me the ever infuriating job of Network IC (i.e. I'm in charge of the network here. offend me and muahahahha). Which is a very important and powerful position here. A position Tong chose not to abuse. A mistake I don't intend to make.

To his credit I think he's a fairly responsible person albeit slightly manipulative one (but manipulation is a good thing). Though he's abit silly when his IC (Jimmy from the previous post) isn't concerned about the stock take, and him pulling his hair out over it.

I can still remember an event happening not too long after I'd arrived. After the MTL had abit too much to drink we found him hugging a dustbin and moaning " Jimmy the VESPA how? Jimmy??" to comical effect.

He's a bit of a hedonist by nature though I mean that by way of him liking to have fun a lot more than I personally care for. Anything from clubbing to cycling he's got a passion for.

One can't help liking him after you've met him. On the whole and excellent person. In fact he's one of the few people I regret not getting to know better over here before he's EOTed.

from plokim.blogspot.com

hahah alrighty..... tata

-----------------------------------------------------------
ahtong signing out
@ |8:57 PM|