Sunday, May 27, 2007

well, im kinda cash strapped at the moment... pple always wonder, i earn $200 a week, why in the hell would i be cash-strapped?? ok i have a confession to make... for the few of you who know the address to this blog, please keep it a secret...

im having facial treatments to treat the acne scars i have on my face... and to tell you the truth, its pretty expensive... so yeah like, so far, i started the treatment in feb and it has cost me about $2000... yeah, so there you go... is it money well spent? well, i have pple commenting that my complexion is getting better... but almost half of hte $2000 ive spent is for an upcoming treatment starting on 9th of June, im not starting the pre-treatment which includes tablets and cream to 'prepare' my face for the treatment, which, during that time, my face will peel and all that shit... and apparently it stings too... so im just praying and hoping everything will go well...

to those that think im taking a stupid risk, well, life is about taking risks isnt it?? and besides, this is not some fluffy treatment, this is a medical procedure with a trained paramedical esthetician overseeing the whole process. this treatment is also medically endorsed and proven... so hopefully, it will do wonders for my skin (or scars rather)

the first session starts on the 9th of June, which is a saturday, this is where they will apply a first layer to my face (which stings) and i have to leave it on for at least 12 hrs... and then, the next day i would have to go back and they will apply a second layer... after this, my face will start peeling on the 3rd or 4th day, and i hav to put the cream they give nightly until one week later, where a 'lift off' treatment will be done, followed by another 'lift off' treatment one week after...

so hopefully, everything goes well, and they said i can expect to see 60-70% improvement from where i am now... so yeah, hopefully after the whole thing, i can post the before and after pics here... see how it goes yeah? and to those reading, please pray for me, both for the facial treatment and for my exam which so happens to start on the same day!! 9th June!! and it also happens to be me and my gf's 9th month!! haha

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Tuesday, May 22, 2007

argh.. today is just one of those days u know? that start out bad, and continues to be bad the rest of the day? well, i drove to uni today, and while on the PEDESTRIAN crossing trying to cross the road, i was almost run over by this stupid cyclist that doesnt have the common sense to slow down.. oh well, needless to say i was a bit annoyed and shaken... i thought that will be the end of the 'bad start'... but, it seems that people are just a lil bit cranky or are in a lil bit of an 'unfriendly' mood today... i dunno... argh, just one of those days...

has anyone heard of 'the secret'?? well i saw it on oprah and it supposedly says that the energy you put out into the world, u will receive... somehow, i really doubt life is that straight forward... i mean, you can be nice to people, radiate a very positive and happy personality, but trust me, not everyone will respond in the same way. throughout the day, u will get people that will make u happy, and u will still get those that are depressed...

for me, i try and attempt to let all the troubles and worries slide off my shoulders, and just be thankful to God for everything that i've received. but then again, its easier said than done...

things seem to be inproving with the treatment ive been undergoing... but its been costing me lots... i short of $$$ now.... dunno how im going to survive... theres no extra $$ for me to spend on clothes and stuff like that, all the money i make from work is going straight to products and treatment... oh well... lets see, what have i given up (sacrificed) so far:

-a jumper
-collar shirts
-shoes

darn..... it seems like inflation is pushing everything up except my salary ^_^

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Sunday, May 06, 2007

well, one of my mates left work at woolies cos of another job at ernst and young... of course, things in life will change, but somehow, whenever a change happens, you sorta dont want it to happen... at least i should be grateful that we can become good mates, running 10km around the swan at 8 in the morning on good friday... we will still meet up, just not as often, oh well, just another change in my life, another phase

things with my parents havent changed much, im getting used to be isolated from them, well ok so i isolated myself... but i have good reasons to be doing so, they cant aspect me to be all hunky dory with them after it was them that have been very unreasonable.. just today, after church, we went to eat at this foodcourt place and there was this caucasian guy that was talking to us, he was from scotland, and the topic of travelling came up... as we finished our meal and we walked out, my dad said to me 'yeah you should use this time now to go travelling' in a tone as if nothing in the freaking past was ever done, or ever said... and if you read my earlier posts, you would understand why his statement now is so much irony... i just ignored him... actually, i have been ignoring him for the past month or so, only speaking to him in one word 'sentences'... in fact, i think the amount of words i spoke to him today could be less than 5, and those are one word answers to his questions...

im kinda dying to scream out inside, changes happened that i dont want them to, sometimes we overplay our importance in other people's lives, which i suspected happen in my case... oh what the hell..

on the other hand, the party last night for andrew stevenson's 21st was cool... it was fun, and had a good time catching up with mates i havent seen in a while... but this was immediately shattered when i get home.... sometimes i think to myself, i should just spend a few dollars each week to buy lottery, if i just strike 2-3 million australian dollars, i would move out of my house now WITHOUT HESITATION

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Friday, May 04, 2007

sometimes.. ok most of the time, i really dont get my parents... like, we're living in 2 different worlds... they just dont get me, they dont listen to me, they dont support the things that i wanna do, unless its the things that they want me to do...

well, if i really were to miss singapore so so so much, and would wanna go back at every opportunity, wouldnt i hav stayed in singapore instead??? y in the hell would i be in australia then???? its because i DONT need to move, i have been moving for the past freaking 6 years of my life, i dont need to move again every school holidays... i need to SETTLE DOWN, hang out with my friends here, and not go back to singapore every 6 freaking months... geez...

oh and also, my dad has been complaining that i spend too much time with my work mates and college mates, and not enough time with my uni friends... he said 'u know, now u're at uni, u should spend more time with your uni friends, go backpacking and travelling'... so, he said that already right? and the opportunity to do community service overseas came up and i signed up for it, and he got FREAKING UNHAPPY!!!!!! he said 'u know, now is the best time to rest and study hard, this kinda opportunity will come up in the future' WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT?!?! SERIOUSLY!!! andhe gave me the silent treatment after that, i figured, i'm not going to start talking to him, no point... i will die

and my mum said they have no enough money for me to go on the trip, so i guess thats y they want me to go back every 6 mths to singapore huh? i guess thats y they insist i take singapore airlines instead of tiger airways back to singapore? and i guess thats y they suggested i go to japan with me relatives this coming january in 2008??

i have always been insignificant, they dont take my opinions and thoughts seriously... but oh well, what do i know, i'm only a 22 year old right? *rolls eyes*

bitches

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Thursday, May 03, 2007

HEY!!!!

ok seems like i havent been blogging for 'awhile'.... hmmmm, haha well, life has been going ok, i guess, still going strong with lynette, still working at woolworths, still going out with friends, parties and stuff like that...

well, today i just entered myself for this community work project that takes u to places like costa rico and california to do community services and to hav fun!!! like there will be lots of adventurous places and stuff where we get to do stuff like rock climbing, jumping off waterfalls, snorkling and live with the locals!!! I SO WANNA GO!!

well, even if i'm not accepted, no dramas, i can just organise and go travelling with a few mates, but i really hope to go... just a few concerns though:

1. $$$$$ enough said
2. I hope that woolworths can give me a long enough break for it (2 months including coming back to singapore) i hope they would not ask me to quit just because i have to go on off for 2 months... i mean, i hav friends that hav gone away for more than 2 months so.....

oh well, i really hope this opportunity wont pass me by... alrighty, its 7:12 pm now, gotta go to work soon!!! late night shopping tonight!

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